“Bold” does not describe me. So for every five hundred ideas that pop into my head about how I can Go Bold, I maybe do one or two of them.
I’ll give you an idea of how challenging these challenges are for me. I got the bright idea that I’d bake some bread and take it over to my neighbor, who happens to be on my Top 5 (who I have only talked to twice in about six months – strike one). Brilliant! Simple! Easy! I should do that. But then I started asking myself all the questions unbold people ask themselves. “What if she doesn’t like bread?” “What if she’s gluten free?” “What if she thinks I think I make good bread but she thinks it’s horrible?” “What if I bake it and she leaves town and I can’t give it to her?” “What if a chartreuse platypus falls from the sky and hits me while I’m walking across the street to her house?”
I can come up with a zillion reasons to not do the simplest, least bold, Go Bold things as soon as I think of the Go Bold thing I should do. It’s embarrassing.
I’ve been asking myself why I mentally erect so many barriers to my own ideas. What I’ve realized about myself is worse than embarrassing. Here are three Go Bold inhibitors that I need to overcome. I’ll explain them in hopes that if you recognize yourself in here, you’ll join me in growing up.
The first Go Bold inhibitor is insecurity. In this case, insecurity is the ability to reduce any act of kindness I could do into an internal conversation about what the person I do it for is going to think about what I do, how I do it, and why I do it. Insecurity means that instead of doing something kind for someone and trusting God to use it for his glory, I get sidetracked thinking about the affect it will have on my glory. I need to repent from worshipping my own ego and believe that God put me across the street from this lady for his reasons and I’m on mission in his Kingdom, not mine. Bake the bread for cryin’ out loud.
The second Go Bold inhibitor is doubt. I’m very good at convincing myself that such small actions don’t really matter. After all, in a world polluted by ISIS and cancer and addiction what good is a loaf of bread? But God used a smooth stone to slay a giant. God used a twig to signal the end of the flood. God used a stable for his entrance into his creation. Maybe God will use a loaf of my bread to connect someone to the Bread of Life. But only if I have the faith in him to bake it and give it away. Quit fretting and see if God does something awesome!
The third Go Bold inhibitor is self-righteousness. I don’t know what else to call it. It’s the messed up idea that somehow what God is doing to redeem his creation is dependent on me doing everything just right. Self-righteousness is the grace vacuum that sucks away a lot of really good Go Bold opportunities. They get killed when I resist them because of what I can’t do perfectly, or explain perfectly. Self-righteous people don’t dance through the streets like David, they stand quietly on the sidewalk and watch him pass. They’re not sure whether to be exhilarated or appalled because they can’t get out of their own way and just jump into being part of what God is doing. Wow, I’m gonna risk it all… baking some bread.
I hope you hear what I’m trying to tell myself. It’s not about you. It doesn’t have to be gigantic. You don’t have to do everything perfectly. Do it small. Do it poorly. But go do it. God is good and God is powerful and God will use it. Go Bold.
I’m going to go bake some bread.
– Greg Poore, Care & Support Pastor